i need to not be forgotten and useless and unimportant and i need to be there at least sometimes i need to not think about the times of day we’d normally be doing things, i need to DO those things, watch Adventure Time after i come home from the airport tomorrow but i won’t stay more than a night until friday unless you ask me to i PROMISE i will memorize the sonnet and i will get into Twelfth Night and go to all of my classes and do really well in them and eat in the dining hall once a day and i will be better friends with Girl House and Shalee and everyone

but if i can’t have that then there isn’t anything

i just wanted that

i’m done

i can only keep my promises

i can only do anything

if i’m useful

if i’m important

if i’m safe

if i’m not alone